I wake up and see a overcast day. However, for me, the day is not foggy but clear. I have become very focused on what I need to do and have taken the steps to make that happen. Each day brings me closer to reaching my goal. Each day I take another step, and I see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I know that I am doing the right thing to be a better me. I have never felt true about a cause before. I am driven to make this happen. I cannot be the Andy of the past. I would settle, and would accept being unhappy. This time will be different. I will I am not going to settle and will not accept being unhappy. I have support to help me reach this goal.
I realized that I needed help to do this. I am blessed having someone who will be there for you, to support you and to help you every step of the way. I am really blessed to have someone in my corner to do this for me. No matter what I know that they have my back. I really am a blessed person, and I hope that they know that I am there for them as well.
I would like to end this blog by saying I hope you see each day as a step in a journey. There will be clear sailing days, and some days will be rough. On the rough, days do not be afraid to ask for help. You won't regret that you did. I asked for help and so glad that I did.
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It has been a while since I wrote a blog. I used to write about what challenges I was facing. Other times I would write about how well things are going for me. Things for me are not good or bad just busy. I have many things that I have been working on that I have not had time to write about what is going on.
Since I last wrote I had found something that I was missing in my life. I found the definition of passion. I have realized that I was missing passion in my life. Passion is when you put more energy into something than is required to do it. It is more than just enthusiasm or excitement; passion is ambition that is materialized into action to put as much heart, mind body and soul into something as is possible. Once I realized that I was missing that I have become a more focused person in my quest to be the best I can be.
Since I started writing my blog, I had reconnected with several friends whom I lost touch with. However, not only did I reconnect; I realized how good friends they are. I know that if I ever need to make a call, they would always answer that call. I wish I realized this sooner, but I know it now and I am so glad that they are in my life.
This is going to be my year of change. The past five months I have worked on becoming a better Andy. This year I am working on the rest of my life. I have several challenges in front of me. I feel now that i am ready to tackle them. I know that it will be hard. I feel better about myself that I
can make the changes needed. I know that I have the support behind me to accomplish what I need to do. I really do feel blessed. 2015 will be my year.
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I would like to share a dream that I had last night. I am sitting at the shore, look at the ocean. I watch the waves crash in and feel the mist hit my face. There is no one at the beach. It is just me and my thoughts. I see a boat that is sailing east away from the beach. I start to get up and start walking to the mainland. While I do, so I drop a paper, looks like a map, but I really could not tell. I pick up the map and continue.
I start walking. I start seeing flashes of people. It is like life-size pictures because there are there for a moment, and then they disappear. Some of them I recognize, and some do not look familiar. Each picture is an action photo of sorts. Some are laughing. Some are pointing, and some are crying. I stop at one of the pictures see my old friend Rob.
Rob pasted way this year. During high school, he was my best friend. We would go to McDonalds together before school and have the passing of the Canadian Bacon. He loved music, his family and his faith. He really was a wonderful person. We lost touch after our 10
year reunion. I say, "
I am so sorry Rob."
As his picture begins to fade. I am standing there with a tear in my eye as my friend fades away. I look at my map and continue.
I continue walking and start seeing more people. This time my old roommate George is there, and he is pointing. This picture is more of an action photo. He is moving along a direction, but I cannot make sense what he is trying to tell me. Then I see my oldest friend Howard. He also is making a motion, but I can't make sense what he is trying to say. I try to look at my map and figure out what I where I am going. Confused I do what most men do, just keep walking in the same direction I am going.
Next I see Joel. Another friend I have known almost all of my life. He looks like he is writing something down for me, but I can't make it out. I try and try but it just does not clear for me. When I look up, he gives me thumbs up and then disappears. Bev appears. She smiles looks like she gives a hug and looks to the right. I watch this and then she smiles and disappears. I look around because I am really confused on what is going on. I still see no one. I can't see the main land, but the ocean is farther away now.
The next person I see is my friend Becky. She is points to her eyes, to her hand and then to the west. She does this a few times, and mouths to me got it. Smiles and fades away. I look at the map, and I am starting to see something familiar on the map. It looks like a direction or a path. I continue.
I keep walking and now I see my friend Erin. She is standing there looks at me with her arms crossed, and mouths to me go ahead. I look down on my map, and I see that I should be at the main land. I take a few steps, and I make it. I feel like I have been walking for hours I turn around and everyone is there waving and cheering me on. I look back, and I wake up.
I feel refreshed this morning. I felt the passion to write it all down and share it with you. Maybe one of you can help me figure out what the dream meant. It was nice seeing some of my old friends and new ones all in one place. It was at one of my favorite places the shore. I hope this feeling stays with me the whole day.
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