Cleaning up ....

The other day I started to go through some stuff I have in my basement. I need to do this for me to continue to move forward with myself. I need to start letting go of some of my past. However, while doing this, I noticed that I have a lot of stuff. Why do I have all the crap? What is the purpose of it all?


I start to ponder this while I sort out some of the items, and it comes to me. I was buying things to make me feel happy. I would purchase the cordless phone because it was a decent deal, and I felt pleasurable. This also gets me thinking, How much money did I spend on junk? What a waste, I could have done so much more.


I should have spent the time figuring out. What was bothering me? Take some time to try to improve myself. Make myself a better me. Instead, I bought stuff, and then kept it. Let that mask the pain I was feeling. It seems like I used to do this a lot. I would never directly address my problems. I would always find a way around them. That way, I would not have to deal with the pain. The solution was only temporary. The issue would always come back.


So now I am giving away some of this stuff to people who could use it. I am packing up many bags for good will. I contacted some people who need a television or old DVD player or computer. I am also trashing a lot of junk that I should have done a long time ago. This purge feels good.


With age comes wisdom. I realized that all I was doing was masking the problem instead of addressing it. That will not happen anymore. I know that I will still get some junk here and there, but I will make sure that I go through it before it just becomes overwhelming.  





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