Smile ....

I wake up, and I have a smile. I have had a smile on my face for several days now. No matter how tired I am or how worn out, I have gotten I still have this smile upon my face. I have been asked whey are you smiling so much? I am going to share with you now why.


I started changing myself in September. With the support of a wonderful friend who I will never be able to repay for such a marvelous gift, I started to change the person I was. I bought a fitbit. Since then I have been walking an average of 50+ miles a week. I walk after lunch and dinner every day. I use that time to clear my head. I feel like I walk away my issues.


The next thing I did was I changed my diet. Everyone has an opinion on what diet works for them. By eating better I have watched how the weight has just dropped off. I do not go hungry, but I do not eat as much as I once did. I also watch what I eat as well. I cut down on the sugar and the carbs and eat more salads and smaller portions. This blog is not about just my diet mind you; it is about what has happened next.

I started to like the person I was becoming. I felt a self-confidence I never really had. For so long I have been beaten down by work, family and even former friends. I started to find the person that I wanted to be. Once I found that person I have not let him go. I have made new friends, reconnected with ones that I have lost touch with and found a way to cherish the people in my life. I have let a person in to see me at my lowest and help me rebuild myself to the person I am becoming. Never judging, always supportive but will tell it to me like it is.


So as of yesterday I lost 35 pounds. I have bought new clothes, and look better than I ever have. I have friends who truly care about me, and I care about them. I am more confident in myself and my abilities every day. If I ever doubt myself, or I am not sure of who I am or what I should do, I know there is someone there who will reassure me. That will always care for me and be there no matter what challenge I face.


That is why I have been smiling.  

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Summer is finally over

Last Friday night my softball team finally had its celebration for winning the league in August. The season was pushed a few weeks so when the championship game was played it was the middle of August, and we tried to get to get together but everyone got busy. It was really great seeing my teammates and catching up with what was going on with them.

I started talking to these people about themselves. Seeing what they are doing now that softball is over. I truly started listing to these people for the first time. I realize now that I really did not know my teammates. I never took the next step to get to know them. I would keep them at a distance. There is no reason why I did this I just did. Once again, I felt that they only liked me because I was on the team. I learned I was so wrong.

I got to catch up with people and learn about what they did when they were not playing softball. I learned what jobs that they had. I learned about the people who they love and some who they lost. I have been missing so much of these people. So I started to get to know them. And they started to get to know me. It was a great feeling that I have some really good friends. We even talked about getting together again by the end of the year.

I have to wonder why I did not try to get to know these people. I guess not being confident in myself really effected me in so many ways. I felt that they did not want to be my friends. I was just a guy who played softball with them. This night was different I got to know my teammates, and now they are also my friends. 

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