It has been tough for me to open up. Once I open up, I need to stay open and not shut down. I look at people and to me; it seems so easy for them to do this. They can talk about anything to anyone and have deep conversations without a care in the world. I still have the worries. Did I dump too much on that friend? How much is too much to tell someone?
I keep seeing myself making strides to be better and wait for the air to come out of my balloon. I really do not want to revert back to the way I was. I know that I am better off now then I ever was before. I just never thought that I would be so worried about failing and becoming that person again. It really does scare me.
As I write this, I take a deep breath and clear my head. I have to get these thoughts out of my head. I need to be level headed about this. I need to keep walking the path that I have in front of me. There will be bumps, there will be hills I just need to keep going. I need to believe in myself that I will reach my goal. I will leave that Andy in the past, and the new Andy is here to stay.
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