Seesaw.....

I have realized that life is like a seesaw. You are up and sometimes you are down. The hardest thing to do is to balance the seesaw, when both sides are level. I have realized this more so while I have been trying to improve myself. There have been some highs and some low, but I have not been able to be just level.

I worked on catching up yesterday and today. It was amazing; I could clear off my to-do list and then some. It took a lot of extra hours, but I could do it. I felt great. The seesaw is now up. I went to help a coworker get caught up, and they tell me "Um you are going to be taking this all over." I say nothing just helped her get caught up, and then I go to my office. Why am I not told by my boss? Why does it seem that everyone else knows but me? I can't discuss this until Monday. The seesaw is now down.

In my life, the seesaw would be different. I would have a great personal life, but professionally it would be a disaster. It seems that I have had this issue of balancing for quite a while. The one thing I have noticed is that I am not letting it ruin the rest of my day. I know that I have the support of my friends to help me work it out. I also believe in myself that I will not let these issues dictate how I am going to feel for the rest of a day or days.

So as the workweek ends, I take a deep breath and stop thinking about work. I now concentrate on me. What I will be doing this weekend? Who will I call and catch up with? What things around the house will I get to? I know I will have a great weekend, and next week will be better than this week. I am not letting a seesaw tell me anything different. 

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